I am not going to mix any words here, I am a very sick person when it comes to emotional stability. Not even two years ago while playing a fighting game with friends over x-box live I was in a funk...I was borderline useless and it got to me. Never being a person able to vent my anger in a productive or honestly safe way, I flipped out and took my frustrations out on myself and wound up giving myself a concussion, it was very stupid, and sadly it wasn't even the last case of my self abuse due to rage.
I have been better over the last six months on not abusing myself while angry and...it sucks. It hurts more emotionally than the injuries did physically, but I know it is the better way of things.
On to the current vent however.
Persona 4 Arena.
This game is phenomenal, as a fighting game it is amazing for all the effort and ambition put into this product. I am a very big fan of the Fighting Game Genre, and just before this game released, I also became a fan of the Persona series. Not going to make things super long, as this is not a review, so let me get to the point while my anger is still bubbling in my chest.
I believe it is human nature to WANT to win. Many people often say "I play for fun" as an argument against people who enjoy playing any video game at a high level. That argument is in my mind completely pointless seeing as it is less about "playing for fun" as it is about internal dedication. Winning makes a person have more fun, especially once they have got over a hurdle of a particular match-up or learning of a game. Most people who "play for fun" enjoy winning as much as the most dedicated player, the big difference is that the latter work much harder into learning match-ups, learning combo's, spacing ect.
That is the type of player I attempt to be, I take it to heart when I play my character... This is Aigis
And I completely and utterly feel useless in a match-up, after 80+ matches, not really picking things up against my opponent. Who is that opponent? Well, that is Labrys
Funny enough that my friend picked up the other Battle Maiden in the game, but the point stands, frustration hits hard.
80+ matches against the same player using the same character and in all honesty, I think I am at 25 wins at the very most. I understand losing, hell I am a little used to it when it comes to fighting games...so what is the issue at hand?
I have been grinding it out, learning combo's, playing on ranked matches to learn a little bit about match-ups. I was completely okay with going 30-70 in my first 100 Ranked matches online, I won some and I lost a ton. It happens, I was playing a new game, learning a brand new character, learning a new engine, new match-ups. I was fine.
Losing so handily to my friend however? Don't mind usually, though in this case there is some serious background to it.
There are two characters who my friend has put much more effort into than Labrys.
Chie (Left) and Yosuke (Right)
I still lose to these two characters, not as much, but I still lose and shake it off, observe and move on. So why do I hurt so much against Labrys?
Simple
My friend openly admits that he keeps beating me with the easiest tools and my mistakes. Incredibly easy and high damage combo's, good priority, great range and the like. Very slow and punishable if you can bait things out, but the point is very simple. I am doing well against 12 members of the roster so far, however that 13th one... a Scrub killer as my friend says is absolutely mauling me, honestly it feels like my heart is being pulled out every time I notice my mistakes mid match and get mauled by an axe for my efforts.
Frustration #1
"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein
Okay, that is a little much, but it gets the point across... But this led to something further
Upon asking for help on a forum for this game at a competitive level in this match-up, for tips or videos or even just some combo ideas and help?.... well
Frustration #2
"People suck". - Too many people to count
Nothing like asking competitive players for help, only to be called a scrub, a noob, get told to put the game down and the like. You have to love how a community who thrives on gaining new blood is so asinine to people trying to break in.
Oh, and also, just for emphasis...
Frustration #3
"Not Responding" - Google Chrome
Rewriting is fun, isn't it?
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